rainy days

Its raining outside... and now that im
going to be over here i think this is going to be the current weather everytime i look up or at least a bunch of black clouds, i love rain but it makes me think more than i could have ever imagine, my mind just keeps on and on thinking of people, memories, feelings, weather, music, etc.
Its good to think about stuff but its unhealthy for me to look at the rain falling down the window, i just have to much to think about, and all those thoughts dazzle me and confuse as usual i just want to look the rain fall and get out and feel it streaming down my face and just think "Oh what a Beautiful day" and nothing else to occupy my head just that phrase round and round nothing more and nothing less.
Thinking of people exhausts me, i think of it.... and reminds me Every time I looked at you and tried to get a chance to see you smile, i just felt or feel so weak everytime you smile, like my heart was locked with a bunch of locks and when i saw you smile you just broke the locks and i just fell to hard to notice and get up dazzled with that brightness, looking at you holding my breath. But that appears to be over, but how can it be over if there was nothing there to be done.
Or is there something that i missed, maybe i missed a sign or maybe im just believing something that we both know wont happen, im just fooling myself once more, yes, I slip away to a day that'll never come so i will just stop making myself illusions and then falling into a thousand pieces, thats enough to bare... i just want to move on.
I just have to let go of the pain, and let rain down on me colder as it can so i cant made up my mind and step back and star all over with the same idea that will never be.



A dreamer dreams of an idea, and dreams it never dies.*

MQ ......................... -r? smm- simply me M-