dazed and with my head thinking of the same thing...

well here i am once again...
i really feel like crap, all my left half of the body hurts like hell.
today was awesome i think, except for the pain but whatever i actually dont care
i mean it was a simple game i decided to play, but that aint the point why im typing here again.
Here it goes i mean im really feeling bad that im leavin' but i dont know how to react when it is actually happening i mean i know it is going to happen but im just not aware of how can it affect myself in the very very moment it occurs, i havent slept well this past week but i dont sleep because i want to it is because i cant, i think when you are asleep you are like in a sort of coma state or even that you're dead, sleeping only takes time that you can use to do something better, i know not a lot of people might be awake at the time i think im "dead for specific time" and actually im awake and people around me are sleeping but whatever im ok, im a little sleepy but man im not like writting and letting my head fall in the keyboard i can still remember what i did toaday and stuff like that but well i keep writting.
comig back to the part where i express myself about the feeling of leaving, i am leaving and it doesnt feel as good as i expected, i know it is a fresh start and all that but i feel im going to leave a lot of things behind..... well not beind cuz im going to come and visit everybody i can, but it is just not gong to be the same.

i love this place, i love the people arund me and everything but i have to this for me, i think or know, if this people i care for really care for me they will always have a little piece of me in their heart or mind, and i will always too but i want to get away from the drama, seriously too much stuff to handle for me and my thoughts, they only confuse me and make me doubt of myself and of what i think of. My body will be over there but a my heart will be between the distances, in half of everything, cuz i know im going to meet new people but thats a good thing, im not changing my friends for those who i meey i NEVER WILL cuz there is plety of room in my heart for important people, and the ones i knew before will always come first than the ones i just start to get along with. well changing subject im done with this one.




again the same as the last page think whatever, im still thinking of it, im scared well, im not but i have no time left to think if i say whay i mean to be said or just let the time do what its suppossed to be done, but i cant always let time do all the work, i guess i'll have to make some things too, even if im not aware of what i really want or what i really need, i think i have to get it out of my mind because i knoe im not being returned what i feel for it so i'll just have to leave it that way i guess i'll find someone that will make me think as well, react, so dazed and confused and even more involved in with but i will just have to let it go and keep rollin'

well that's it. everytime i look up at the sky it seems a gray cloud comes up ahead me.*

MQ ......................... -r? smm- simply me M-

Confusing and compromising

ok Hi again, its been a while since i write over here
but actually i had this really weird dream...
of course im not writting what its about, the
information is compromising.

but well i think i just thought a lot of that person
even if it is different than me and something else the same
as me. i mean i had this thought also compromising
but i dont know what to think now...
im a little confused, cuz when i think of it, it
really makes my mind up, i mean this has
happened to me before but ehmm not with this person..
im willing to know its like, to experiment as they say well
whatever, im just a little aware of what might happen,

and i know what it is, i know how it thinks but i dont know
if it is really willing to take the first step.
im kind of interested but i really dont how to react if its
really going to happen something even if im leaving...
well that's al.

i might be fallin ... i guess i just fell to fast to notice*

MQ ......................... -r? smm- simply me -M