Look through people's eyes...

I just exploded, by that i mean that i just couldnt take it anymore the whole hypocrisy all around the place i love the most, agh it makes me sick to see how can people blinded by lies that are disguising the truth, the beautiful truth. Why is it so hard for humanity to difference what is and isnt true? why some of the people i care for are fooled by a two-faced? C'mon people she's full of lies, just see through her eyes! That person is nothing more than an opportunist, a liar, hypocrit, back stabber, selfish and a lot more negative adjectives that i wont say cuz i think if i go on with the list somehow ill sound like that person and this blog is not about exposing people that i think are a waste of time hanging around with this blog is all about the way i feel, the way i write to the situations and problems that surround me, the way i interpret my dreams, this aint a fuckin "burn book" stupid mean girls... that movie should have never been thought of, but well enough of this bullshit.

Its 4:27 am, im not sleepy at all, im thinking about what i want to do with my life, the goals i want to acomplish, the dreams i want to make them happen, but everything looks so blurry and all of my enthusiasm slowly fades away. The only thing that im certain about is that whatever the hell i end up studying i will definetely write a book, its my dream, well besides the other ones i have that are im not really sure of. Lately, it seems that i cant write a simple paragraph of a song, i cant connect the phrases ive written. for me it always looks like there is something missing, that the song has no meaning, and as a person who likes the lyrics of a song more than the music i think its very important to me that anything that i write has a meaning not that stupid songs that are just about sex or whatever the fuck rhymes, I truly believe in the reflection of the writters emotions and inspiration in each song it composes. I dont consider myself as a song writter, im like a "wanna be song writter" i have to make an extra effort to become a real song writter.

A dreamer dreams of and idea & dreams it will never die*

This dreamer is tired of the lies, you can see that through my eyes...
I cant take it anymore, i ask to the people to unblind themselves

MQ ......................... Wherever and whatever i end up doing or going ill take truth as one of my principles... smm- simply me -M

Love and believing is over rated...

Have you ever felt lost? Well as far as i know im feeling like that almost all the time, like you dont know what to do with your life, seems you cant think straight everything is just too confusing and stressing. You cant decide the simplest selection between 2 things.. literally you dont know anything about anything, i dont really know what to believe in, and honesty i dont want to believe anything i see or hear from those people i really dont get along that much, is like this song im trying really hard to write ... life is a game that has to be played, watch your back cuz you dont know what'll attack you from behind, when i finish the song maybe ill post it here but well lets hope at least that i finish it. Im looking for something that cannot be seen, that has no color, that has no shape, not a certain description that stupid thing is called love but by that i dont mean someone that loves me but i dont feel the same way.. or someone i love and doesnt feel the same way, i want the corresponded love.. the one that can be felt and that is returned in the same way... Holly crap why the fuck do i always try to disguise reality?? im so stupid, i notice that i am but i am blindfolded by all of this illusions, i cant really brake outside this fuckin' fantasy world where everything is just colorful and beautiful and there's no place for depression, sadness, confusion, impotense, heartache, all of those things that are hars on this messed up world... i recall the beatles song "Everybody wants to change the world" and yes its damn true i want a world with no discrimination, racism, war, lies, i want all of those things to be over. I truly listen to the beatles because i hear their lyrics and makes me change my perspective about a lot of things, but right now all i need is love that special love, ive been really disappointed about "love" maybe the only thing you dont need is love.. by this i dont mean to ofend anyone who is reading the nonsense im writting but love is a dead end road from my perspective, and no, im not in love, love is fckn overrated.

A dreamer dreams of and idea & dreams it will never die*

This dreamer is lost and drowning...

MQ ......................... Everything nowadays is over rated and believing is just getting harder everyday... smm- simply me -M

E-mail

Well ive been a little off this, and i truly regret it because this kind of takes the pain away its like a healer but ok, hmm here it goes.
Today i received an email from a good friend of mine at first i said: "great another chain letter email.. ohh what the heck lets see what's about". So i opened it and started reading it, i was totally shocked of all of the things it said, the name of the email was 17 ways to know if you are in love.. I mean not all of them i felt related too but like at least 10 i have felt or done, the stronger ones it said.. everytime you look at a picture of that person you stare at its eyes, then it was everytime you think of that person you smile to yourself, another was everytime you are around that person you feel really shy and the last onee that really made me feel weird it said: "through all the email youve thinking of that person and because of that you missed that the mail skipped number twelve and now you just went up to clarify that and right now you are laughing silently."

But well there was a bada thing about opening it, i kind of reopened wounds and remembered the way i used to feel about you, and the good thing, that i found some of the answers ive been looking for, that maybe hurted me a bit but made me realize a lot of things and feel a little bad cuz i know i say that im better of alone but sometimes i really need someone to hold... but well i'll just have to keep the past in the past and look forward to whatever its coming, If there's anything coming..

A dreamer dreams of an idea & dreams it will never die*

This dreamer feels so alone sometimes, but maybe its better that way...

MQ ......................... I want to find the one to make me stop feeling like this and make me feel the way i used to when you were on my mind.... smm- simply me -M