Well its the countdown now, and 5 more days and im officially gone, wow those words all together make my heart stop for a second and then beat faster, it seems that hell is so close and heaven is out of reach, everything is going to be different, but i dont wanns talk about it and i knoe im evading the subject and it will be better to start to get used to the idea that im leaving, i dont know how im going to survive without you, i amazingly have, and i will, until i see you and your beautiful soul, its going to be though but i will do it. Life has turned out how i wanted but this surprised me. i mean going away and how i feel about you. I guess i cant be able to predict or anticipate what is going to happen to you or the ones close to you. Past is history, present is today and future is unknown, sometimes i would really like to take a sneak pick of whats aheadfor me, i knoe i cant and i should leve the future unknown cuz thats why we call this life cuz we dont know whats going to happen i nspecific time, right now i just eant to know what are yoy doing and what are you thinking, i would like that super power, to knoe wat other people think, even if i hear bad comments. Im breakable even if it doesnt look like, im like hmmm a watermelon?? ha thats really stupid but the watermelon is hard or rough on the outside and sweet and soft on the inside, this isnt a good way to describe me, i suck describing myself, i'll find a better way later, well 4 days to go officially cuz it already past 12 its actually 4:41, this is going to be hard, rain please come with me.
A dreamer dreams of an idea, and dreams it never dies.*
MQ ......................... -? smm- simply me -M
viernes, 25 de julio de 2008
Nice TV serie.
So its 5:53 a.m and Im listenin to my ipod, specifically the rainy/cloudy playlist with the whole Boys Like Girls album and this girl that sings country.. Taylor Swift, sweet songs, and Colbie Caillat album. Im specially addicted to one song of boys like girls, Thunder, but acoustic, it sounds more deep and romantic. The Chorus is awesome, the whole songs really hits me, i changed some words and it ended up like this.
Your smile was the inspiration of my summer
Do you know its unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever look anothers
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
And bring on the thunder
Ha, i know the summer isnt over yet but i knoe your smile will make me write all summer long and even more time, i guess till i see you smile again, and i repeat the words that i believe bella or edward said i dont remember the thing is that the words are:"you are exactly my brand of heroin" ha, im addicted but it doesnt affect my health and thats good, and that makes me keep wanting more uff let me catch my breath for a moment i just came back of one of my thoughts, it really shocked me, i think if i gather all my thoughts together i could pull out a good tv series. But just for you to know if you ever get the chance to drop by my blog (this one smmsoul) you will notice im such a fool for you, and i cant control it. I only ask you is that you should never stop smilling cuz everytime you do my eyes shine and my day doesnt seem so fucked up.
A dreamer dreams of an idea, and dreams it never dies.*
MQ ......................... -? smm- simply me -M
Your smile was the inspiration of my summer
Do you know its unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever look anothers
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
And bring on the thunder
Ha, i know the summer isnt over yet but i knoe your smile will make me write all summer long and even more time, i guess till i see you smile again, and i repeat the words that i believe bella or edward said i dont remember the thing is that the words are:"you are exactly my brand of heroin" ha, im addicted but it doesnt affect my health and thats good, and that makes me keep wanting more uff let me catch my breath for a moment i just came back of one of my thoughts, it really shocked me, i think if i gather all my thoughts together i could pull out a good tv series. But just for you to know if you ever get the chance to drop by my blog (this one smmsoul) you will notice im such a fool for you, and i cant control it. I only ask you is that you should never stop smilling cuz everytime you do my eyes shine and my day doesnt seem so fucked up.
A dreamer dreams of an idea, and dreams it never dies.*
MQ ......................... -? smm- simply me -M
Thank you subconscious.
Ive got some more texts i have written over the past 5 or 4 days so im going to write them in one single day, so here goes the first one.
Today is rainning again, how magnificent is that, and i say this because every raindrop that touches my skin reminds me of, oh. This is going to sound stupid but well, like that scene of daredevil when they are both actors on the roof top of a building and guy is blind so he can see Elektra, and then it starts to rain and with the sound of the raindrops makes the dude sees Elektra. I mean when you are far away from my eyes its like everytime i see the rain, i imagine your silhouette formed by raindrops. And I see myself in one of those mental lagoons sitting over a balcony with my trusty notebook and my confident blue or black pen looking at the beautiful rain fall down so cold and gracefully, and then a thunder sounds takes me by surprise and when i recovered i saw your silhouette aproaching to me and then i just felt how your cold hand touched mine. And i almost thought i felt it, i came back to reality, you got my head spinning and i really didnt knew wher to go from there, today it was one of those days when every once in a while i pretend im ok, but i figured out i have been loosing so much time, and i take a few tears now and then just to let them out.
Everything you do is beautiful, your voice follows me everywhere, i hear it more than my subconscious and that really doesnt bother me, cuz it seems you are right behind me, and i turn around everytime even if i know its impossible that you are behind me, i keep the illusion but my hopes are too high. I would do anything to have the chance to feel your hand over mine even just for a while but it seems too far away. I thought of you and me in a huge mall and its like theres you and me and all of the people that had nothing to do and im paralyzed standing between all of the people and my eyes are like attached to you cuz i just cant take them off of you, and you smile at me and thats all i could have ever asked for, nothing distracts me and you dont go anywhere until something dizzes me up and i fall down on my knees and when i try to get up still dizzy i see you starting to fade away, and the ni realized it was only a dream. How Fortunate. Thank you very much sunconscious but well thats i dream once every rainy day.
A dreamer dreams of an idea, and dreams it never dies.*
MQ ......................... -r? smm- simply me -M
Today is rainning again, how magnificent is that, and i say this because every raindrop that touches my skin reminds me of, oh. This is going to sound stupid but well, like that scene of daredevil when they are both actors on the roof top of a building and guy is blind so he can see Elektra, and then it starts to rain and with the sound of the raindrops makes the dude sees Elektra. I mean when you are far away from my eyes its like everytime i see the rain, i imagine your silhouette formed by raindrops. And I see myself in one of those mental lagoons sitting over a balcony with my trusty notebook and my confident blue or black pen looking at the beautiful rain fall down so cold and gracefully, and then a thunder sounds takes me by surprise and when i recovered i saw your silhouette aproaching to me and then i just felt how your cold hand touched mine. And i almost thought i felt it, i came back to reality, you got my head spinning and i really didnt knew wher to go from there, today it was one of those days when every once in a while i pretend im ok, but i figured out i have been loosing so much time, and i take a few tears now and then just to let them out.
Everything you do is beautiful, your voice follows me everywhere, i hear it more than my subconscious and that really doesnt bother me, cuz it seems you are right behind me, and i turn around everytime even if i know its impossible that you are behind me, i keep the illusion but my hopes are too high. I would do anything to have the chance to feel your hand over mine even just for a while but it seems too far away. I thought of you and me in a huge mall and its like theres you and me and all of the people that had nothing to do and im paralyzed standing between all of the people and my eyes are like attached to you cuz i just cant take them off of you, and you smile at me and thats all i could have ever asked for, nothing distracts me and you dont go anywhere until something dizzes me up and i fall down on my knees and when i try to get up still dizzy i see you starting to fade away, and the ni realized it was only a dream. How Fortunate. Thank you very much sunconscious but well thats i dream once every rainy day.
A dreamer dreams of an idea, and dreams it never dies.*
MQ ......................... -r? smm- simply me -M
sábado, 19 de julio de 2008
Changes
Hey it seems that now i publish the posts early (the last one and this one) it means that my internet is gone for good, well not for good, cuz that was the only way i could talk to you, even if our conversations didnt lasted long, at least we talked and thats important for me cuz you really pay attention to what im saying and i really thank you for that, but well changing the subject.
I hate distances, i really do, why are there miles, kilometers and all that stuff? why cant we teletransport ourselves to wherever we want to be or whoever we want to be around. i guess ill better start working in that particle dismantler, ha that will take some time so i will have to control myself before i lose my head, i mean seriously distance is stupid, distance changes people. i mean it, a lot of people o have met that have gone somewhere else to live, change, they do, and that really frightens me. i dont want to change. I DONT. But maybe i wont resist or i wont notice until you or other people tell me:"Hey, you have changed a lot." And of course i will deny it, its obvious when we dont want to admit something we deny it. I promised not to change..... and i plan to keep that promise, so i wont change, i take promises really important, cuz my childhood was full of broken promises and my heart broken into pieces. I dont want to dissapoint anyone cuz i have down so many times that i would never allow myself to let the ones i care for down because of me and they mean so much to me and a promise a commitment to acomplish something and to be content with yourself, but well i have just taken this down too deep i was supposed to write other something else, i will just have to publish that another day, and i cant finish this one without something about you.
Im admiring the rain ant the most i admire is you as my sunny day, and i have noticed that when i look at a dark night and those stars far away so bright and beautiful remind me of you, so unlike the others making myself wait anxious for the night to come and see those stars even if it had rained or if it had been sunny. I just look around and i see you in everybody and when i close my eyes you are everywhere i look.
A dreamer dreams of an idea, and dreams it never dies.*
MQ ......................... -r? smm- simply me -M
I hate distances, i really do, why are there miles, kilometers and all that stuff? why cant we teletransport ourselves to wherever we want to be or whoever we want to be around. i guess ill better start working in that particle dismantler, ha that will take some time so i will have to control myself before i lose my head, i mean seriously distance is stupid, distance changes people. i mean it, a lot of people o have met that have gone somewhere else to live, change, they do, and that really frightens me. i dont want to change. I DONT. But maybe i wont resist or i wont notice until you or other people tell me:"Hey, you have changed a lot." And of course i will deny it, its obvious when we dont want to admit something we deny it. I promised not to change..... and i plan to keep that promise, so i wont change, i take promises really important, cuz my childhood was full of broken promises and my heart broken into pieces. I dont want to dissapoint anyone cuz i have down so many times that i would never allow myself to let the ones i care for down because of me and they mean so much to me and a promise a commitment to acomplish something and to be content with yourself, but well i have just taken this down too deep i was supposed to write other something else, i will just have to publish that another day, and i cant finish this one without something about you.
Im admiring the rain ant the most i admire is you as my sunny day, and i have noticed that when i look at a dark night and those stars far away so bright and beautiful remind me of you, so unlike the others making myself wait anxious for the night to come and see those stars even if it had rained or if it had been sunny. I just look around and i see you in everybody and when i close my eyes you are everywhere i look.
A dreamer dreams of an idea, and dreams it never dies.*
MQ ......................... -r? smm- simply me -M
i will find a way too let it out by words
Well here i am, there is something that is been bugging me for a while so im going to use this blog to let it out.
Hm people are rare. I mean I was talking to a friend and there was something i wanted to tell her but..... i chickened out, the words couldnt come out of my mouth, well i didnt typed what i wanted to say, and its really making me insane. People do that, they want to comment something and its like they keep that words in their heads and they think of what might happen if they say whats on their mind. Sometimes when what you think its told you might hurt somebody and that is not good but really when there is something really really important for you to say, like something that has to do with feelings its good to let it out. People get scared, yes, we do. And i include myself in those people cuz im too shy to say what i want and what i feel, im brave in other aspects but the whole thing of expressing emotions isnt one of my strongest qualities. And thats why i write. Well not only because of that, i like to write about what i feel, what i experience, what i think and that, but i wouldnt have the guts enough to say all that i have written on my blog to a public, i just CANT. Its way too hard for me, but i guess i better start working in something good to say what i feel. And i really have to find a way for my own good, its not wrong to write all that but i fear someday my head and my heart will not take it anymore and all the paper in the world wouldnt be enough. Now im over this subject. i just wanted to let that out.
And about the next post im about to write, those stars so bright and beautiful arent you, cuz you are just a fallen star even brighter and way beautifuler that the others. And in this confusing times, i only know its you, cuz you make me sing, you make me wonder how will the next day appeal, and how will the sun rise and just remind how your hypnotizing smile lightens up my eyes and my whole day, cuz you are just every moment of my everyday.
A dreamer dreams of an idea, and dreams it never dies.*
MQ ......................... -r? smm- simply me -M
Hm people are rare. I mean I was talking to a friend and there was something i wanted to tell her but..... i chickened out, the words couldnt come out of my mouth, well i didnt typed what i wanted to say, and its really making me insane. People do that, they want to comment something and its like they keep that words in their heads and they think of what might happen if they say whats on their mind. Sometimes when what you think its told you might hurt somebody and that is not good but really when there is something really really important for you to say, like something that has to do with feelings its good to let it out. People get scared, yes, we do. And i include myself in those people cuz im too shy to say what i want and what i feel, im brave in other aspects but the whole thing of expressing emotions isnt one of my strongest qualities. And thats why i write. Well not only because of that, i like to write about what i feel, what i experience, what i think and that, but i wouldnt have the guts enough to say all that i have written on my blog to a public, i just CANT. Its way too hard for me, but i guess i better start working in something good to say what i feel. And i really have to find a way for my own good, its not wrong to write all that but i fear someday my head and my heart will not take it anymore and all the paper in the world wouldnt be enough. Now im over this subject. i just wanted to let that out.
And about the next post im about to write, those stars so bright and beautiful arent you, cuz you are just a fallen star even brighter and way beautifuler that the others. And in this confusing times, i only know its you, cuz you make me sing, you make me wonder how will the next day appeal, and how will the sun rise and just remind how your hypnotizing smile lightens up my eyes and my whole day, cuz you are just every moment of my everyday.
A dreamer dreams of an idea, and dreams it never dies.*
MQ ......................... -r? smm- simply me -M
domingo, 13 de julio de 2008
you just make my day joyful
jeez its early, fckin phone why did it had to ring, now im not sleepy, gosh does my brother knowthere is something called keys, responsability, moral or something that would touch his heart andnot call at Fucking 6:34 a.m, what the heck. But well i dont wanna be mad, its kind of good cuzmaybe i'll get the chance to meet you, but who knows, ahhhh i feel sleepy but not at the same time with a morning like this it made me wanna go run by the sea ahhhh but im hungry, and i dont knowwah enough with this subject, still hungry. Lets move on i only slept 3 hours yeah more time to make my life valuable, lets the morning with something beautiful mmmm i have already seen the gorgeuos dawn in blue and orange and white or something, ohh dont think i forgot that i have already forgot to think of that special person, i did it since my eyes first opened this morning, do you think i could have forgotten?? never, you make my day beautiful, doesnt matter what had happened, doesnt matter how's the weather outside, doesnt matter if people want to brake me down cuz even if im in the floor that doesnt mean im broken cuz i have things to stand up for and you are one of them so, it doesnt matter what's happening i only need you to make my day worth passing it through.
Sometimes i think you stare at me and i have seen you do that, and sometimes i dont want to look at you because im too scared that i will say something wrong, and one time that i did turned i just answered your eyes with a smile on my face and a little blush in my cheeks, but i actually dont know what does your head thinks and someday i would really like to know what passes across your mind, but i guess that will be some other time, but it will be really interesting to know what you think.
A dreamer dreams of an idea, and dreams it never dies.*
MQ ......................... -r? smm- simply me -M
Sometimes i think you stare at me and i have seen you do that, and sometimes i dont want to look at you because im too scared that i will say something wrong, and one time that i did turned i just answered your eyes with a smile on my face and a little blush in my cheeks, but i actually dont know what does your head thinks and someday i would really like to know what passes across your mind, but i guess that will be some other time, but it will be really interesting to know what you think.
A dreamer dreams of an idea, and dreams it never dies.*
MQ ......................... -r? smm- simply me -M
viernes, 11 de julio de 2008
i dont a need a sunny day.. ive got you
wow i finally got it.... i dont need a sunny day, you........ are my sunny day, it doesnt matter if its rainy and cloudy every day thinking of you makes my day so bright and shiny even if i see the sky falling apart in rain on the other side of the window or looking at grey clouds all over the horizon and beyond it, all i need is you on my mind, the air i breath and a place to rest my head is all i can ever ask for, the last two are the easiest ones but you on my mind is not what i really really need is you right beside me but i see that quite impossible yes impossible unless you found out and you felt the way back but theres the big dilema im not sure about that but well for a while it wouldn't hurt me if i only thought of you.
i only need to keep my head attached to my body and my feet stucked in the ground so i can still move literalty jajaja but i guess everytime i look somewhere your face chases me, but its you, when i look up at the roof o see you then i try to close my eyes and its you, when im sitting all alone in my room listenin to sad songs and hope songs everything reminds me of you, and im leaving, that's the worst part im dont know whats going to happen when im really gone, i wish things have turned out differently but theres nothing i can do, i'll just have to move on, gosh it took me too much time to write that jeez i will consider that like plan C =D jajaja well im staying up late again for you, i dont blame i thank you for making my time priceless and useful i dont care what time is it (3:34 a.m) i like staying up late to think of different situations involving you and me but i guess its enough of that so i will go to sleep ha why do i say that im just going to lay down and think, well farewell.
A dreamer dreams of an idea, and dreams it never dies.*
MQ ......................... -r? smm- simply me -M
i only need to keep my head attached to my body and my feet stucked in the ground so i can still move literalty jajaja but i guess everytime i look somewhere your face chases me, but its you, when i look up at the roof o see you then i try to close my eyes and its you, when im sitting all alone in my room listenin to sad songs and hope songs everything reminds me of you, and im leaving, that's the worst part im dont know whats going to happen when im really gone, i wish things have turned out differently but theres nothing i can do, i'll just have to move on, gosh it took me too much time to write that jeez i will consider that like plan C =D jajaja well im staying up late again for you, i dont blame i thank you for making my time priceless and useful i dont care what time is it (3:34 a.m) i like staying up late to think of different situations involving you and me but i guess its enough of that so i will go to sleep ha why do i say that im just going to lay down and think, well farewell.
A dreamer dreams of an idea, and dreams it never dies.*
MQ ......................... -r? smm- simply me -M
lunes, 7 de julio de 2008
so is it real?
hi ehmm nothing new today... boring day, raining, (what a surprise!), same things, xbox, msn, empire earth, updating the blog ohh and last but not least you on my mind... once more ha, you have become part of my routine every night, every day, every evening, every dawn, every time i look at the sky falling into rain, you have become my favorite activity, i was passing the highway looking at green trees getting a little sleepy closing my eyes and thinking of upcoming situations with you and me, wow im totally thinking of it seriously and it seems your noticing too or maybe it was to consolidate our friendship or maybe not im not quite sure about that, i just ask myself: so is it real? And my head just doesnt leave the subject and for my dumbness i didnt took my ipod, but well maybe at some point listenin' to a song you might have popped into my head as easy as a popcorn jaja well kind of.
im happier im finally coming back but.... to pack up the crap in my room, jeez i just think of it and it appears so hard working, fiuu and my really really leaving day just seems so far away and i dont really know what the fuck im going to do when that day comes, im going to miss a lot of people, but i mean a LOT of people, and specially you the most. When i start up my life here im going to be so distracted about you, what you might be doing or what you might be thinking i think if i walk past the street im confident im going to get hit by a car seriously i would walk so absent-minded that noise would be the only thing to makes me wake up from my hypnosis. And watching the rain fall every single day out from my window i will be more and more hypnotized because i will be thinking of you. i guess i'll have to put curtains all over the windows ha but maybe thinking of you will make my day way happier than a normal one so i think that aint a good idea, i like the idea of thinking of you, but well im cold i just wished you were here beside somehow, someway it doesnt matter, maybe thats asking too much, but having you in my mind will make things alright.
A dreamer dreams of an idea, and dreams it never dies.*
MQ ......................... -r? smm- simply me -M
im happier im finally coming back but.... to pack up the crap in my room, jeez i just think of it and it appears so hard working, fiuu and my really really leaving day just seems so far away and i dont really know what the fuck im going to do when that day comes, im going to miss a lot of people, but i mean a LOT of people, and specially you the most. When i start up my life here im going to be so distracted about you, what you might be doing or what you might be thinking i think if i walk past the street im confident im going to get hit by a car seriously i would walk so absent-minded that noise would be the only thing to makes me wake up from my hypnosis. And watching the rain fall every single day out from my window i will be more and more hypnotized because i will be thinking of you. i guess i'll have to put curtains all over the windows ha but maybe thinking of you will make my day way happier than a normal one so i think that aint a good idea, i like the idea of thinking of you, but well im cold i just wished you were here beside somehow, someway it doesnt matter, maybe thats asking too much, but having you in my mind will make things alright.
A dreamer dreams of an idea, and dreams it never dies.*
MQ ......................... -r? smm- simply me -M
im not complaining or maybe i am
jeez for the first time it seemed it wasnt going to rain, which i thought was a miracle it just started rainig like hell. why cant it be a frikin sunny day, im not complainig cuz i like rain and in here is cold rain and it is amazing but seriously im only asking for a single day with no rain at all, a simple sunny day with no distractions for my mind, cuz i think of you a lot in a rainy day and in a sunny one i think of you but not as much than in a rainy day because every raindrop that falls makes me wanna be close to you even if you could never find out what i do everytime i look at you, my heart races, my mind flies away, my eyes just wanna look at yours, trying to get the chance to see your smile cuz my eyes light up when you smile,whenever you pass by i stop and stare at you like my eyes couldnt notice anything more than you.
But i cant let myself lose like that i think absent-mindly and that could make you find out what i feel, so i'll have to ley my mind busy with you but in an awake mode, so i can notice whats going around. Everynight i think of you i stay out late with my eyes open like you were right beside me, and when i shut them all i want to do is dream, i wake up early to think you even if you confuse my head, i dont care, i just leave my mind to marble the idea of you right beside me.
A dreamer dreams of an idea, and dreams it never dies.*
MQ ......................... -r? smm- simply me -M
But i cant let myself lose like that i think absent-mindly and that could make you find out what i feel, so i'll have to ley my mind busy with you but in an awake mode, so i can notice whats going around. Everynight i think of you i stay out late with my eyes open like you were right beside me, and when i shut them all i want to do is dream, i wake up early to think you even if you confuse my head, i dont care, i just leave my mind to marble the idea of you right beside me.
A dreamer dreams of an idea, and dreams it never dies.*
MQ ......................... -r? smm- simply me -M
jueves, 3 de julio de 2008
from day to night
Here i am its rainig again...
Its like yesterday but with more thunders and ligthenings, i am finally coming back, but until tuesday, i wanna go back to pack my stuff and enjoy my last days over there before i go again to frikin Canada but well i just ended up listenin some beautiful songs and some interesting songs that perfectly fit with the emotion i keep feeling day and night, every morning it appears a winding road that's taking me to places that I didn't want to go, every night i think of how just in a blink of an eye i was holding to something so hard and then i dont know how i just wake up and there is nothing to hold on to.
And i just cant stop dreaming the same thing on and on, and even if im not sleeping it comes to my head every once in a while, and i lose myself for a second then i return so suddenly that people ask me "Hey where were you? come back to earth" and this is just because of you in my dreams i tried to look in your eyes, and all i want a simple explanation for what I'm feeling inside,maybe there is a way out.... i just lose the sense of time and it makes my days go on faster than i could have ever thoght of. Your are just so diferent from everybody, so unreal, so unique, there is nobody that i can compare to you, its unbelievable but it is what it is, you just caught my attention. I took one big step and i looked away and then i thought of all the things that i wanted to say im always too late to say what i needed to let out of my mind, i just stay the same quiet and shy all the time. I feel like the stars are getting closer and the sky is closing in even if i just see the sky gray and it just dont stop raining. Rain and night reminds me of you over and over, i may not be able to survive over here if the weather forecast is always cloudy and rainy if it only reminds me of you..... i will have to find a way to hold on to my both legs.
A dreamer dreams of an idea, and dreams it never dies.*
MQ ......................... -r? smm- simply me -M
Its like yesterday but with more thunders and ligthenings, i am finally coming back, but until tuesday, i wanna go back to pack my stuff and enjoy my last days over there before i go again to frikin Canada but well i just ended up listenin some beautiful songs and some interesting songs that perfectly fit with the emotion i keep feeling day and night, every morning it appears a winding road that's taking me to places that I didn't want to go, every night i think of how just in a blink of an eye i was holding to something so hard and then i dont know how i just wake up and there is nothing to hold on to.
And i just cant stop dreaming the same thing on and on, and even if im not sleeping it comes to my head every once in a while, and i lose myself for a second then i return so suddenly that people ask me "Hey where were you? come back to earth" and this is just because of you in my dreams i tried to look in your eyes, and all i want a simple explanation for what I'm feeling inside,maybe there is a way out.... i just lose the sense of time and it makes my days go on faster than i could have ever thoght of. Your are just so diferent from everybody, so unreal, so unique, there is nobody that i can compare to you, its unbelievable but it is what it is, you just caught my attention. I took one big step and i looked away and then i thought of all the things that i wanted to say im always too late to say what i needed to let out of my mind, i just stay the same quiet and shy all the time. I feel like the stars are getting closer and the sky is closing in even if i just see the sky gray and it just dont stop raining. Rain and night reminds me of you over and over, i may not be able to survive over here if the weather forecast is always cloudy and rainy if it only reminds me of you..... i will have to find a way to hold on to my both legs.
A dreamer dreams of an idea, and dreams it never dies.*
MQ ......................... -r? smm- simply me -M
miércoles, 2 de julio de 2008
rainy days
Its raining outside... and now that im
going to be over here i think this is going to be the current weather everytime i look up or at least a bunch of black clouds, i love rain but it makes me think more than i could have ever imagine, my mind just keeps on and on thinking of people, memories, feelings, weather, music, etc.
Its good to think about stuff but its unhealthy for me to look at the rain falling down the window, i just have to much to think about, and all those thoughts dazzle me and confuse as usual i just want to look the rain fall and get out and feel it streaming down my face and just think "Oh what a Beautiful day" and nothing else to occupy my head just that phrase round and round nothing more and nothing less.
Thinking of people exhausts me, i think of it.... and reminds me Every time I looked at you and tried to get a chance to see you smile, i just felt or feel so weak everytime you smile, like my heart was locked with a bunch of locks and when i saw you smile you just broke the locks and i just fell to hard to notice and get up dazzled with that brightness, looking at you holding my breath. But that appears to be over, but how can it be over if there was nothing there to be done.
Or is there something that i missed, maybe i missed a sign or maybe im just believing something that we both know wont happen, im just fooling myself once more, yes, I slip away to a day that'll never come so i will just stop making myself illusions and then falling into a thousand pieces, thats enough to bare... i just want to move on.
I just have to let go of the pain, and let rain down on me colder as it can so i cant made up my mind and step back and star all over with the same idea that will never be.
A dreamer dreams of an idea, and dreams it never dies.*
MQ ......................... -r? smm- simply me M-
going to be over here i think this is going to be the current weather everytime i look up or at least a bunch of black clouds, i love rain but it makes me think more than i could have ever imagine, my mind just keeps on and on thinking of people, memories, feelings, weather, music, etc.
Its good to think about stuff but its unhealthy for me to look at the rain falling down the window, i just have to much to think about, and all those thoughts dazzle me and confuse as usual i just want to look the rain fall and get out and feel it streaming down my face and just think "Oh what a Beautiful day" and nothing else to occupy my head just that phrase round and round nothing more and nothing less.
Thinking of people exhausts me, i think of it.... and reminds me Every time I looked at you and tried to get a chance to see you smile, i just felt or feel so weak everytime you smile, like my heart was locked with a bunch of locks and when i saw you smile you just broke the locks and i just fell to hard to notice and get up dazzled with that brightness, looking at you holding my breath. But that appears to be over, but how can it be over if there was nothing there to be done.
Or is there something that i missed, maybe i missed a sign or maybe im just believing something that we both know wont happen, im just fooling myself once more, yes, I slip away to a day that'll never come so i will just stop making myself illusions and then falling into a thousand pieces, thats enough to bare... i just want to move on.
I just have to let go of the pain, and let rain down on me colder as it can so i cant made up my mind and step back and star all over with the same idea that will never be.
A dreamer dreams of an idea, and dreams it never dies.*
MQ ......................... -r? smm- simply me M-
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