Hoping for an outcome.

Well im here, and i am not sure if im going to be able to tell you all of the things i want to say... i mean today is my last day here, i really need to take this of my head its killing me, yesterday i saw you, i couldnt take my eyes of off you it was like i was hypnotized by all of your glow, i melted jeez im telling today also to other people how i am, while i do this i hope they react ok even though im expecting the worst, sometimes is better to expect the worst cuz if you're expecting like the best it always turns out wrong so if i expect the worstand they react ok i will be relieved and not hurt or disappointed. Im still wondering how will you react after i spit everything out, with no exceptions. I think im going to freeze as always or maybe i will try to evade the subject, or even run away like the coward i am. It feels i cant breathe or im pausing in every breath. Right now i need someone to encourage me to go and ask you if i can take 10 minutes of your time, going by myself is going to be hard, really hard. But well there's nothing more ican say right now, im affraid, its the truth ill let time pass and hope for a nice outcome, or at least an answer.