I better stop being such a fool for you...

Oh man i cant believe it...
I have just read every post in here, and i truly cant believe how blinded and lost i was about you, hmm i mean if the outcome had turned differently i would feel better but the outcome was painful, it bursted my beautiful bubble. I am still a fool for you but i need to stop believing and come to reality i have to change the way i feel so this whole stops burning..., even though the result of telling the truth totally depressed me. Telling you the truth was the biggest mistake of my life, and telling you that you were always the only thing on my mind,but i have to admit that you still are.. God i cant lie, thinking of you still makes me wanna smile, i have to get you out of my mind and throw this emotion away, ive tried a dozen times to do that, it seems i cant let go of it.

It kind of upsets me that i cant deal with this, a part of me doesnt want to give up and still believes there is something that i can do to hold you, and then there is this other side that is willing to admit that there was nothing to make us come together, and to let go of this feeling that only makes me feel so depressed and sad because it knows that is not going to be easy to let go of the only person that made me happy and the only person that had the power to destroy me, im half destroyed but im on repair, i dont know when ill be ready, i hope soon so i can close my heart with all of the locks you broke and attach a lot more so if someone hurts me again that locks will remind me that i cant let myself believe something that is not going to happen. I have plenty of support to move on, they all say there are lots of fishes in the sea and that i can find another one... but when i find the other fish i am certain that im going to start comparing it with you, and for my heart your are going to be irreaplaceable cuz there is not going to be any one like you and because of that i wont let that other fish inside of my head, i am still going to be thinking of you, your eyes, your smile. I have to let this idea fly away from my heart and mind.

Cuz i gave you my everything but i wasnt the one...

A dreamer dreams of an idea & dreams it will never die*
This dreamer is tired of dreaming of things that were never real.

MQ ......................... now I know it was nothing there to hold on to. smm- simply me -M