Anxious to open up

OMG!! im so happy right now! actually thats kind of... rare nowadays but well, im going to that city beside the sea *sigh*... event though I havent slept in a while, I mean yesterday i only slept like 4 hours but today it changed to winter time that its an hour less so i only slept like 3 hours, but in those hours awake i was only imagining how everything could happen, every alternative, ha i cant believe i spend all night thinking about it, and that doesnt mean i regret it, I truly love thinkin about you, its the best thing I can do with my spare time, my favorite activity, a meaningful thought. All of that, sometimes I think Im too lost in my head thinking of you, even if what i think hasnt happen, anyway i like to come back to reality and tell myself: "Its going to happen... its only a few days away" ahhh today is unreal i feel like i never have felt before, and you know what? its still away that date, imagine how im going to be one day before that date, Jeez im going to start acting like one crazy stupid person or i might freeze and go pale and act like a freakin zombie, hmm i would have to choose between those options and to play it cool, relax even though im about to explode of anxiety!!!! (ok to much coke for today).

To me everything now seems like an illusion but i cant deny the way I blush when I think of you, the way I smile when I remember your words, the way I almost wanna pass out when someone mentions you, the way I wanna go to bed early,Just so I can dream of you although sometimes i dont even sleep, the way I wanna hold your hand, the way I write your name on my schoolpapers, the way my heart beats faster, and the way I feel when I imagine you with me, I cant deny any of them its impossible, its like trying to keep living without any air, just like that...
Im only waiting for that beautiful moment to say the truth and nothing more.

A dreamer dreams of an idea & dreams it will never die*

MQ ......................... -? smm- simply me -M