Love and believing is over rated...

Have you ever felt lost? Well as far as i know im feeling like that almost all the time, like you dont know what to do with your life, seems you cant think straight everything is just too confusing and stressing. You cant decide the simplest selection between 2 things.. literally you dont know anything about anything, i dont really know what to believe in, and honesty i dont want to believe anything i see or hear from those people i really dont get along that much, is like this song im trying really hard to write ... life is a game that has to be played, watch your back cuz you dont know what'll attack you from behind, when i finish the song maybe ill post it here but well lets hope at least that i finish it. Im looking for something that cannot be seen, that has no color, that has no shape, not a certain description that stupid thing is called love but by that i dont mean someone that loves me but i dont feel the same way.. or someone i love and doesnt feel the same way, i want the corresponded love.. the one that can be felt and that is returned in the same way... Holly crap why the fuck do i always try to disguise reality?? im so stupid, i notice that i am but i am blindfolded by all of this illusions, i cant really brake outside this fuckin' fantasy world where everything is just colorful and beautiful and there's no place for depression, sadness, confusion, impotense, heartache, all of those things that are hars on this messed up world... i recall the beatles song "Everybody wants to change the world" and yes its damn true i want a world with no discrimination, racism, war, lies, i want all of those things to be over. I truly listen to the beatles because i hear their lyrics and makes me change my perspective about a lot of things, but right now all i need is love that special love, ive been really disappointed about "love" maybe the only thing you dont need is love.. by this i dont mean to ofend anyone who is reading the nonsense im writting but love is a dead end road from my perspective, and no, im not in love, love is fckn overrated.

A dreamer dreams of and idea & dreams it will never die*

This dreamer is lost and drowning...

MQ ......................... Everything nowadays is over rated and believing is just getting harder everyday... smm- simply me -M