am i going nuts?

ok so im feeling weird or somethig kind of strange or hurt or not worried about people, i dont really know whats going on with me, today is like one of those days when im like hating everything or something, apparenting im fine even if in my inside im not or OMG i dont know ANYTHING im seriously becoming insane or something Jeez ufffff i need some silence, some rain, pretty weird it hasnt rained in the past couple of days i mean what the heck it is supposed that here rains everyday and now there is not even a frikin gray cloud, crap i sound angry, i dont want to sound like that, fffffff i need my IC right now i need someone to make me feel everythings ok or at least make me believe it is and take this worries out of my head with a simple joke or a stupid comment it doesnt matter i need it.

I dont understand myself i hate rain but i love rain i dont get it, im weird, but for everybody to know i do like rain, it relaxes me and inspires me keep writting on and on till there is nothing more in my mind, cuz i like writting what i feel even if sometimes it doesnt make any sense or something logic.I also need to talk to you but i cant find the way and seems you dont care or i dont know at this point i dont want to raise false expectatives and i dont want to brake down at this moment, i will keep average as always and look up to the sky and try to find a grey cloud you are still the one that makes me stay up late cuz i rather think of it than sleep.
Ha a lot like our IC song Electromagnetic Spectrum.
I love u my invisible crayons. Remember me cuz if you ever forget things will just get harder and harder because of distance. It isnt as easy as just calling me or going to an specific place.

A dreamer dreams of an idea and dreams it will never die*

MQ ......................... -? smm- simply me -M