inspiration...

Well my trip around canada and the amazing city of seattle is over, tonight im at monterrey, mexican land haha, i just heard those words from someone =) ha well i really dont know what to write here, i ran out of inspiration, a little weird i think, i was complaining because i havent had the time to write here eveyday but its like i cant think of anything. You come to my mind but when i blink you had already dissapeared from my mind, i need some rain, i need it..... , i also need to know you are ok but in my head i just get no answer and i hope you are and i also hope that you notice sometime, but well i cant do much im away from where im supposed to be, pictures burn my heart, its killing me to see your smile and closing my eyes and then opening them, cuz i know there is nowhere to find them cuz its only my imagination, hmm i need to keep breathing, i need to take a deep breath cuz even when it seems that im breathing, the air just doesnt get in my lungs, it feels like i have no lungs, like that hole i once talked about, the incompleteness the need for something or someone to fill me up, even if i didnt want to be helped but this time im only waiting for it to notice i need it and if that doesnt happen i guess ill have to travel to the corners of my mind to foind at least what keeps me away from falling apart one more time.
even thouhg i dont know how much can my heart handle the wait for that stuff to make me stand up, and i also dont know if it does fall apart how much time will it need to heal, can a song heal an awaiting body? i dont know that but at least im still writting once more and i will continue until every part of me is squeezed till i get the last drop of inspiration.

A dreamer dreams of an idea, and dreams it never dies*

MQ ......................... -? smm- simply me -M